I got my dates confused. For some reason, I’d started thinking that the end of the 100 day push was the end of March, which meant I only had a month left to finish the rewrites on the novel, and there was no way in hell I was going to be able to finish the rewrite in that time.
This morning I finally counted out the days. The end of April, not March, is the end of my 100 day push. That means there’s a chance, albeit extremely slim, but a chance that I’ll finish the rewrite by then.
One of the things that’s plagued me before with the rewrites has been the fears: A) Amount of work, B) Losing momentum and focus, C) Never good enough.
The amount of work–well, there’s still a metric ton of it in front of me. But I’ve been plowing through it, and I feel good about what I’ve done so far.
As for losing momentum and focus–that hasn’t been a problem. I think a huge part of that is due to the 100 day push. I’ve written every day. Hell, I’ve written every day this year with the exception of the one day in January when I was just too sick. I’ve stayed so involved in the novels that I haven’t had time to be bored. There’s always the next section, etc. I think the problem before has been taking time off, days between working on the rewrite, allowing myself to become distracted. Plus, I love these novels. I don’t always post WIP tweets, but I run into phrases every day that I adore. I just worked on another section that I adore. It doesn’t work as a WIP tweet–it’s too long, and it isn’t the clever words that turn my crank, but the inevitable tumbling into trouble for these characters. There’s one path that the characters adamantly do not want to go down. They know it’s a trap. However, there’s no choice. That path is the only one available to them. Period. They must go forward into danger and guaranteed death. Fills my black heart with glee, it does.
Will these novels be good enough? I don’t know. I won’t know until I sell them. But I love them. I love the ideas and words and characters and world and everything. I’m working really hard to make them the best that I possibly can. I just hope that’s enough.
😀 *hugs*