Tracking Days

Back in the bad old days, when I was having 12-15 migraines per month, one of the signs of an impending migraine was that I’d lose focus. For one to two days before the migraine hit, I couldn’t concentrate. I had all this work I had to get done and I couldn’t do it. Couldn’t focus. It was so frustrating, particularly once I recognized it as a harbinger. I couldn’t work for a couple of days before the migraine, couldn’t get anything done during the migraine, then might need a day recovery, afterward.

The last couple of days, I haven’t been able to focus. However, I didn’t think about this being a harbinger of anything. Instead, I fell back to my usual cycle of complaints about myself, that I was lazy, that I should be able to do this, that I was letting critical voice in to the writing room, etc.

Yesterday turned out to be a Meh day, though one of the worst ones I’ve had in a while.

Physically, it was better than usual. I think that’s because I’ve been doing so much walking. I still tried to get in my 250 steps per hour all day yesterday, which was tiring, but doable. Prior to now, walking so much would have left me completely exhausted.

Mentally, I had no brain. Couldn’t write. Wasn’t tracking well. Did a small bit of editing, but that was about it. Spent the day reading or playing games on the phone, as well as watching a movie.

Today is a good day. I have brain. Will write. See people. Probably get in 10K steps.

Don’t know what tomorrow will bring. Both December and January I ended up with a string of Meh days, every other day for 5-6 days.

But what I need to remember is that if I’m having days when I can’t concentrate, that this is still a harbinger. I didn’t have a migraine yesterday – didn’t even have a headache. I did have a Meh day. Fortunately, I didn’t have anything that I really needed to do. If I had, I would have been screwed.

I had hoped that by being hard core keto as well as all the exercise that my Meh days would be more mild. That wasn’t the case with this last one. Fingers crossed about whatever happens with the next one.

We went to see “Birds of Prey” yesterday. Good day for me to go see it, as I had no brain whatsoever and could just enjoy the pretty. What movies have you seen recently that you’d recommend? No horror or anything too dark – my own brain comes up with that sort of stuff on its own, thank you very much.

PS. Still have a bundle going on! Visions of the Future.

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