I’m really glad that I’ve built up this habit of working in coffee shop, especially this morning.

The panic is mostly gone, just a sliver remaining. I slept tense last night, which surprises exactly no one.

However, as I was sitting and reading last night, I felt a wash of vertigo and realized that the brain fog had started. It’s really interesting to be aware enough to feel the changes rolling over me.

So I got headachy last night, am still headachy this morning. Plus, I have very little brain.

But I have this habit. I get up, go into a coffee shop, and I write. I’m back at a place called Vintage, with the tall tables so I can stand.

I don’t know how many words I’ll manage today. This blog post has been pretty easy so far, so I’m hopeful. Yoga was really interesting this morning as counting to 20 or 30 was kind of outside of the realm of possibility. I couldn’t focus.

And that brings me back to why I started coming here. So that I could start to focus on a regular basis again. I’ve been fighting this for a while. It’s easier than I realized to just lose the habit.

This is when I remember that I tend to be more stubborn than the usual person. I will retain my ability to focus, even if I have to relearn it again and again. I will write this morning. I will get things accomplished today, regardless. And then collapse tonight as I’ll be fighting every minute just to keep moving forward.

Hopefully this cycle will be a short one, and that this is one of the worst days, that tomorrow will be better. I doubt it, though. Experience shows that I’ll have at least one more day of meh before I get back up onto an even keel again.

What habits are you grateful for today?