For the month of April, I was 205 words shy of 45K, so I’m just going to call it 45K. (^_^)

My stated goal for any month is 62.5K. My fallback goal, as it were, is 50K. So I didn’t make either of those. If I’d felt better at the end of the month, I would have made 50K, but I didn’t feel great, so I didn’t make either goal.

On the one hand, I’m disappointed that I didn’t get in more words in April. I really wanted to. On the other hand, I had kind of planned that I wouldn’t get as many words done in April – I had the mystery workshop, and that was going to mess with my schedule.

I am at 210K for the year. My stated goal for the year is 750K. If I stay at the pace I’m currently at, I’ll manage 640K for the year.

We’ll see what happens in May. I have a writing marathon scheduled. When I started into the year, I knew that there were going to be a few bad months right at the start. My plan had always been to make up those missing words in May, then stay on schedule for the rest of the year. Plus I have a second writing marathon planned in October, in case I need it.

I do not know if I’ll be able to make my stated word count for the year. I am going to re-evaluate my goal at the end of June and see what kind of progress I’m making. It might turn out that 62.5K words per month is overly ambitious given my health.

For example, I would count yesterday as a bad day, even though I was physically able to do things. Mentally, I could NOT focus.

I used to have a lot of day where I couldn’t focus at all. For me, those days were always the harbinger of a migraine. It always made me so angry. I would have things to do. I would know that the following day would be awful. And yet, I couldn’t concentrate.

Yesterday was like that. Let me put it this way – pulling weeds was kind of too much focus. So I didn’t write yesterday as I’d originally planned.

Today, I don’t have a migraine. It isn’t a great day, though. Woke up with a horrible headache. Laid in bed for 25 minutes meditating, getting rid of the headache. Now I’m in that weird wavy state, for want of a better term.

I’ll be feeling bad, thinking, okay, this is it. It’s just going to be an awful day. Then, 10-20 minutes later, nope. Feeling good. I can think again. I can move forward. Only to start feeling bad again a short while later.

The migraines used to do this as well. The pain would come and go in waves. It was as if the migraine couldn’t get a good hold of my head and kept sliding off.

That’s what I feel like today – as if the feeling awful just can’t get a good hold.

Am fasting this morning – plain black tea, nothing added. Am sitting as well, instead of standing and writing. I think I’ll be able to write a little, or at least that’s the plan.

Then we’re going to go see “Avengers: Endgame” this afternoon. It might be a little overwhelming given my current state, but there honestly isn’t going to be a lot that I can do today. Might as well go have some fun!